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One hell of a Tuesday….πŸ˜… — April 18, 2019

One hell of a Tuesday….πŸ˜…

So after work on Monday, I was super excited for my day off on Tuesday.(Last week was really stressful πŸ˜–)

I had my schedule all planned out for Tuesday. It was more or less going to be…

I was gonna wake up late, order some food in, play some games and that would be the end of Tuesday.

One thing that I didn’t factor in was the fact that my body’s circadian rhythm is set to waking me up at around 5-6am. (My usual work wake up time).

(If you catch my drift 😏😜)

As I was in the middle of my morning routine, I was greeted by a….

Now, no prizes on guessing who it could be…

She just wanted to inform me that she was in a relationship with…..

Now I had just gotten up and wasn’t ready for this news…

Now, it felt as though the aforementioned individual (the one who’s name is in the picture puzzle) was trying to elicit a response from me but as you might know this wasn’t my first rodeo in this scenario.

Karen, Fi,are few individuals who were in the same situation before and the ending wasn’t necessarily a happily ever after.

Now in this girl’s case, I think the situation is different, since she is clearly love struck…. to a degree that I can’t fathom.

Now there are two possibilities on how this could end.


Now some of you might be wondering….

Honestly, I’m not a big fan of the guy but I’m curious to see how things will turn out.

If things go south, it will further cement my existing beliefs but if things turn out okay then I’ll believe that….

Now, back when no one was committed we or more specifically I decided that Once either of us were committed, we would keep our conversations to a minimum, no need to give our respective other a reason to feel jealous.

Now the girl was like,

I drew the line in the sand and said that we are still friends no doubt about that but let’s keep our conversations to just texts, no audio or video calls.

I may have been a bit too harsh but if it was me in a relationship, I would probably have done the same too.

So all this was just before 7am. Now I didn’t want this to throw me off my schedule so I just went back to bed..

Got up at around 10am after hearing a loud rumble…

Now, shops open up at 11am so what to do…what to do….

Played for a bit, then looked up places to get my grub on….

Finally decided on…

2 wraps in and I was…

Now, I wanted to resist taking a nap as that would mess with my circadian rhythm.

So I ended up bing watching

The plot was good but I was more into the will they, won’t they scenes between Abby and Eric.

And I was very pleased with the outcome in the season finale.

Now that my heart was all….

I decided for some reason to bring it back from the excited state to normal by watching….

The last three episodes of…

In my heart I knew it was gonna be a sob fest but this would be the best time to watch it and get it out of my system (Read previous post for more details)

After I finished watching it….

The impact was felt but not to the degree that I had feared…that’s when I realized that it was the narration that hit you right in the feels rather than the dialogues…

Plus I feel like all those years ago when I stopped watching the show midway, I was in a similar situation as the protagonist….. but right now I wasn’t in that scenario.

Back then I had loved and lost but as of right now, it’s more like you can’t lose what you don’t have.

In other news,

Are coming to visit on Thursday.

I’m excited about it but not too much.

Friends are pissed off when they see my level of excitement, I don’t blame them, most people would be..

I think it’s a result of the emotional rollercoaster ride that I have been on for the past decade or so.

I think my self defense mechanism has created a fail-safe wherein I don’t go to the extremes of my emotional spectrum. (Neither too happy nor too sad, just somewhere in between)

I let myself go towards the negative extreme 7 years ago and I barely made it out alive.

Then as I was composing this very post, Broseph comes back from his platonic Date….

And then inquiries about his Toblerone…

Now in all honesty, when I was watching the anime, I wanted a lil bit of euphoria rush and I ended up consuming his chocolate (not knowing that it was meant just for him)

But no worries, I’m gonna replace it tomorrow, on my way back from work.

(Pardon the pun, but I couldn’t resist 😜)

Now that the hiatus for most of my shows are up, I have something to watch or look forward to every day/week.

Especially…this show which comes out in May.

Hope you guys have a good week ahead.

Reconnecting with my true self & movies with open endings πŸ§ — April 14, 2019

Reconnecting with my true self & movies with open endings πŸ§

Lately, all of my focus has been about work, money and the future….

Without matters of the πŸ’“ to distract me, I had grown quite complacent in my daily routine.

Then one day I decided to watch…πŸ˜”

Which led to the re-emergence of all the suppressed πŸ’“

In the movie there was this line ”

It’s just life. It’ll be over before we know it.

That’s when I realized that I was just getting through days by just fulfilling my physical needs and throwing my emotional needs to the wayside.

Now the things that usually fulfil my emotional needs are singing, blogging,etc.

So first thing to cross off my list was…

And second was to prepare drafts for posts….

That brings me to the second part of this post, movies with open endings.

Five Feet Apart is one such movie.(would recommend!!)

Growing up we have always heard of the phrase…

but after experiencing real life, we realize that it is not the case always.

Sometimes the hero dies in the end.

So when movies leave the ending open for my interpretation it creates a dilemma within my psyche.

Its like the gameplay mechanics of the horror game from PS4..where the choices we make have consequences.

Sometimes we are torn between the choices because we have to choose between an ideal ending or a realistic one.

A couple of years ago, I was watching an anime by the name of Your Lie in April.

Now, I really connected with the protagonist. However,midway through the series, it seemed like things were taking a turn for the worst.

At that very moment, I stopped watching further.

I eventually ended up reading about the ending and it was as I had feared.

Now although the show ended on a bittersweet note, since I hadn’t “watched” the anime all the way through, I convinced myself that the ending was a happy one….

It’s like the SchrΓΆdinger’s cat scenario, I convinced myself that in my reality, the show ends in a happily ever after.

I think the way that I convinced myself was “Since I don’t have a happily ever after yet, i might as well make sure that Kousei gets one”

I know….

It seems like something that a child would do…but back then I was going through a tough time in my life and I did what I had to, to prevent the negative vibes from getting to me.

If that meant rewriting an ending to an anime series in my head then so be it.

Hope you guys have a good Sunday 😘

P.S. it’s almost GOT time.

Criticism & Hypocrisy…. — March 31, 2019

Criticism & Hypocrisy….

Dishing out criticism seems easy as pie but taking it seems as unpleasant as swallowing a pill.

Now I know that criticism can sometimes be constructive and at times destructive but what many people fail to realize is the fact that the person who dishes out the criticism also plays an important role in the swaying of the criticism from one extreme to the other.

Case in point, when someone who drinks alcohol and smokes criticizes you for your choice of food; although it may come off as constructive criticism at first, may end up sounding like hypocrisy.

In my case, whenever I hear constructive feedback/ criticism from a hypocrite; I try my best not to dismiss it entirely but to pick out the parts which I know I can take home with me.

The same logic applies when someone who has had many failed relationships offers you relationship advice, you pick and choose what part you want to follow coz let’s be real they aren’t the gold standard when it comes to relationship but at the same time we can learn a bit from them to avoid making the same mistakes that they did thereby trying to prevent or reduce the likelihood of falling into the same predicament as they have.

There are some…

Then there are the others…

The idea for this post came to me when I was having a chat with Broseph recently. He is someone who I will always look upto but what he fails to realize is the fact that although I know that he would like the best for me …it always comes down to practice what you preach.

From what I have gathered so far…. Once he left the coop, he basically expedited his life….

What I mean by that is, he expedited the below aspect of his life.

He went through the cycle multiple times at an early age as per Indian standards… So much so that I feel that he has either become….

Or his thought process is along the lines of….

Now imagine someone like that πŸ‘†

Offering me who is like…

So I pick and choose what part of his “free advice” I will pay heed to coz I feel like he has given up hope but not me.

I may be a little late to the game but that doesn’t mean I’m completely oblivious to it.

In other news, April is starting tomorrow. Hyped about a bunch of releases and also about Golden Week.
Golden Week” Many Japanese workers get about a week off around the end of April and beginning of May. This is because there is cluster of national holidays during this time.

Now you might be wondering, as to why I am excited about something that happens in Japan.

One Word…. SALE!!!!!!

From all the releases this year when it comes to games, I am most interested in buying… (MK 11 already in cart πŸ˜…)

So Tanabata (Golden Week) is my best bet on getting some good anime games at a discounted price.

That’s it for now, hope you guys have an awesome Sunday.

Life just got too complicated too soon.. — March 24, 2019

Life just got too complicated too soon..

I think it’s been almost 2 months since my last post but the title pretty much explains the reason behind it.

A couple of months ago, I was put into a precarious position…. It had been a couple of months into my job hunt and I was getting turned down left right and centre.(primarily coz I lacked work experience).

Now since I’m pretty much on a time limit in Canada, Broseph threw down the Ultimatum, procure a job by March or look into moving to the other provinces to continue the job hunt..

When he threw down the Ultimatum, in my head I was thinking…

I moved from Ontario to Alberta coz of two reasons, Loneliness and Intense Competition (Lying, backstabbing among friends and all that jazz)

Now you just want me to pack up and go through the whole ordeal all over again.

Luckily, before the time limit ended I ended up procuring a job in a meal kit company. And now three months into the job, I’m the Assistant supervisor who is in the running to become the Supervisor.(short update, your boy is now the Supervisor 😝)

Now some of you might be …

But it’s like Uncle Ben said…

Now honestly, I would have liked to go about it at a steady progression but then Broseph’s words come to mind…

You must seize opportunities as they come to you, if you shy away now; you will be kicking yourself later.

These three months have taught me a couple of things that I need to pay heed to going forward.

β€’No one wants to take the responsibility or blame but they are more than ready to claim any praise or glory.

β€’ The Real World only cares about what you bring to the table and what the statistics and numbers convey, but it will always neglect the hardwork and dedication that was put behind the scenes into reaching aforementioned goals.

β€’Having couples employed in leadership positions in the same department will always lead to trouble no matter how good they are at their jobs coz when in crisis they will back each other up and πŸ–•all those around them.

β€’Trust no one but yourself coz at the end of the day, that’s the only person who you can truly rely on.

β€’Unless it’s on paper,it’s not valid or even real. No paper trail equals no accountability.

At times, things got so stressful at work, that I would ask myself,

Is all of this even worth it?

Recently, one of Broseph’s friends came to visit us in Calgary, when he came, let’s call him Gavin.

So as per usual, Gavin and Broseph had a bit of 🍷and then we got to the topic of work, so Gavin who is close to Broseph’s age was telling me about the hardships that he had to go through to get a PR.

He said, Right now, it is gonna feel stressful and at times the stress will get to a point that it will almost break you, but you need to make sure you don’t cross that line of no return coz only by going through these hard times now will you be able to condition yourself to take on things that life has yet to throw at you.

I know he was drunk, but at least he was honest about the things that he said since he wasn’t sugar-coating it. His words in a sense rejuvenated my will to carry on and take on all challenges at work.

My life has mostly been

Sleep- 6-7 hrs

Work – 8-10 hrs

Everything else- 7-10 hrs

Recently, I was trying to catch up with my friends on how things were going in their lives and some of them I feel have leveled up in their social interactions and mind-set.

They are at the same level of thinking as Angelica.

Now is that a good thing or a bad thing only time will tell?

Now enough about me πŸ˜……

Lemme tell you about 3 things you should be hyped about in April…

Winter is out and Spring is coming soon.

Hope you guys have an amazing Weekend.😁

Sex Education+ It’s my Birthday πŸ˜…+ Bohemian Rhapsody. — January 29, 2019

Sex Education+ It’s my Birthday πŸ˜…+ Bohemian Rhapsody.

I think it’s safe to say that this post will be a bit…NSFW πŸ˜†

If you looked at the title and thought that I would be having the birds and the bees conversation with you guys then you thought wrong.

I was referring to this new show on Netflix which I came across recently..

If you get a chance definitely watch it, it has a bit of NSFW content to it, but some of the viewpoints that are made on the show are spot on..

Case in point.(minor spoilers ahead!)

Boy: Why do you wanna have sex so bad? πŸ˜•

Girl: What do you mean?!πŸ™

Boy: You seem desperate to have sex I donno why? πŸ˜•

Girl: I donno? I guess I just feel like if I don’t do it then I would graduate school and I wouldn’t have had sex; and then I’ll go to University and I’ll be behind everyone and no one will have sex with me coz they will think I’m a weird virgin girl and then I’ll never have sex because I’ll be too embarrassed, weird and virginal. I’ll grow old and die alone in my house where I’ll be eaten by my pet python.😞

Boy: Hehe, I think you skipped a whole lot of steps there. πŸ˜…

Girl; I just don’t wanna be left behind. I just wanna get it over with. πŸ˜’

Boy: Okay. I know it feels like most people are doing it and some people are but most of us aren’t. It’s not a race.πŸ˜•

Most people don’t realize that it isn’t a competition in any sense. It is a life experience that must be shared with that special someone at an opportune moment.

And if you like πŸ‘†show you will also like this other show which is a lil bit older but has a similar tone.

A couple of months ago, while I was looking for a job, I saw this awesome cake on a YouTube video with all the trimmings and I was determined to make it…I even went as far as to make a blueprint for the cake so that I didn’t end up forgetting about it.

So it was supposed to be a vanilla cake with chocolate ganache/frosting with strawberries and a white chocolate cage on the top.

But since im busy with work chances are that I’ll end up making my staple brownie cake.

Today Angelica called me up to wish me and things seemed to be back to the way it was before πŸ’© hit the fan. However, this time I’ll be a bit more cautious in my interactions with her wouldn’t want history to repeat itself now do we….

I finally after much procrastination was able to watch….

Its a really good movie, the ending song segment is the perfect end to the movie. Won’t spoil the movie if you haven’t already seen it, I would highly recommend it.

Last night, I was also able to play the Open Beta for Jump force.

After playing that I’m inclining more towards Jump force as opposed to MortalKombat for my PlayStation.

Let’s see…

Now there is only one movie that I need to really watch and get it over with…

The Real Winter is almost here!!! — January 16, 2019

The Real Winter is almost here!!!

No, the title is not in reference to the reveal date of the final Season of GOT

Side note: Pretty stoked about it though.

But it’s about the fact that for the next couple of weeks, Canada is about to be the coldest place on Earth.

Given below is a fragment from a news article…’s gonna get…

And just to put things into perspective..

Minus Single digits are bad enough but when it gets into the double digits + the wind…

Imagine you drop some of the rubbing alcohol on yourself…

If you can recall the chill that you feel, – double digits is that sensation all over your body…😳

The funny thing is that, back home when you tell people about how cold it’s gonna get they assume it is gonna be as bad as…

Now, it’s not gonna be so bad that you insta-freeze…but it’s definitely not gonna be a pleasant experience..but hey, such is life in Canada.

In other non-climatic news, the meme of December 2018, payed me a visit a couple of days ago..

In case you have no idea what I’m talking about …

The meme was…

And this is his real-life counterpart

Since Broseph was able to replenish our spice rack with spices from back home.

I was able to make a much better version of my standard Chicken Biryani.

Mark my words, one day I’m gonna perfect it and make it as good as Mom’s version.

What else….

Spiderman Far From Home trailer dropped and it was Lit πŸ”₯

An Egg broke the world record for being the most liked picture on Instagram..

And MK 11 reveal is happening on the 17th of January.

That’s all for now…Have a great week everyone.

Stirring falls victim to the misery season! — January 11, 2019

Stirring falls victim to the misery season!

It’s officially 2019, and we are still in the winter season, be it in Canada or back in India and you know what that means…

The misery season claimed one of my childhood friends in 2018 and a few days ago, it claimed one of my stirrings… No. 3 to be precise.

When the stirring, for the sake of the story let’s call her “Bianca”

So Bianca published the πŸ‘° story a couple of days ago on her social media and I happened to come across it while I was perusing through my social media.

I saw the news, realized it was her who had gotten hitched and not a friend of hers and my first reaction was…

Yes, coz she was stirring no. 3, back in 2014/2015… So in a way it was old news.

Plus the main reason for her to become a stirring in the 1st place was..

Traditional clothes wore correctly and with confidence can have just as much if not an even greater impact than revealing outfits….

There was a series of events that had aligned for Bianca to become a stirring in the first place,

Traditional day➑️ Realizing that your friend had moved in on your crush and the final nail in the coffin was..

The stirring fizzled out when I really got to know her πŸ˜…

So back to the story, I saw her post… had the above reaction and got on with my day….

Thousands of miles away, some one else saw the same post and I’m pretty sure her reaction was…

I think by now most of you know who this person is….

The one question that Sarah has when it comes to this particular stirring is..

Followed by; Were you…

What she fails to realize is the same scenario can be flipped on her as well..

And my follow up would have been…

Speaking of frozen, i think Sarah’s story may eventually turn out like Anna.

Prince Kans came, left quite an impression on her and bid farewell just as quickly… Now although she’s in the..

I think it will take a Cristoff to finally..

The last remnants of Kans.. present in her β™₯️ and 🧠.

In other news, Broseph is back with a whole lot of goodies from home viz.

Speaking of which today for breakfast I’m gonna be indulging in some…

With that being said…